Well, it's been a long time since I posted here. Longer than I imagined it would take for me to get pregnant again. But by some magic that doesn't yet seem real, I have reason to post here again. Apparently, our disaster of an IUI worked. We didn't relax. We didn't go on vacation. We didn't adopt. We stressed and planned and had a million things going on at once. Matt worked a million hours, and I got the ball rolling on our move and house hunting in between follicle scan appointments. And somehow, here we are. This morning, when I tested, I left the strip on the counter after a minute like I always do, because I've come to expect it to be negative if it doesn't look positive right away. But when I went back to the bathroom a while later, I noticed something VERY faint, but I couldn't trust it because it had been sitting there too long. But after retesting 4 hours later (with 3 more tests of various brands and an OPK for the hell of it), that suspicious line on the first test was confirmed.
Since my miscarriage a year and a half ago, I have thought a lot about how I'd handle telling people when and if I was pregnant again. Part of me was always angry that by trying to wait until our trip home at 10ish weeks to tell my dad and some of my sisters about my pregnancy, I ended up only getting to tell that that our trip home for Christmas would be postponed by my D&C for the baby they never knew I was carrying. So, this time, I decided to enjoy and celebrate this pregnancy for as long as we can. My progesterone is being monitored, my thyroid was just checked, and the rest is pretty much out of our hands for now, so I plan to do all I can to act as if I am any other pregnant woman just going about my life expecting a healthy and happy baby in 9 months. I'll probably go for a beta tomorrow and two days later to make sure things are progressing as they should, and I'll get an ultrasound at 6 weeks and another at 8, but I will try my hardest to not live every day in fear like I did before. There is no way to prepare for the pain of losing a baby, so why experience it until you have to? I'll cherish every minute with this baby.
I decided today to go ahead and share our news with my close friends (including my incredible friends in my infertility support group), our parents, and one of my sisters so that we can celebrate this life right now with those who have given us so much love and support over the last 2.5 years. We are so lucky to have people in our lives who care so much for us and have encouraged and prayed for us. I hope we will be sharing the birth of our new baby with them in early January of next year :)
